Some What Ifs
If it turned out that I was really talented,I would create a single world-famous masterpiece.I would earn enough money for the rest of my life.And then I would waste every penny of it until I die.
If I was a king and ruled over the land.I would make all the people that I don’t like disappear.But then that might mean I’ll be the only person left.Maybe it’d be faster if the one who disappeared was me.
And if I saw you sleeping right next to me,I feel like I just might be okay as the person I am now,A person who bullshits about all that he’ll never have.
If I found out I was actually kind of smart,I would gladly go to college and earn my degree.I would find a great job like my parents always wanted.Then maybe they would finally be proud of their son.
If deep down I was truly a kindhearted man.I would help all the people around me in trouble.To be honest, I’m sick of feeling like a piece of shit,Whenever I see something bad happen and pretend I didn’t.
If I happened to be a confident speaker,I’d be a host on one of those late-night radio shows.And no matter how rough of a day the audience had,I would be able to put a smile back on their faces.
And if I saw you sleeping right next to me,I feel like I just might be okay as the person I am now,A person who bullshits about all that he’ll never have.
If I was one of those expert musicians,I would write lyrics that transcend language,And create melodies never before heard.I’ve imagined a life like that more than once.
If I had become the world's best physician,I would cure my father of his crippling disease.Of course, I’m too embarrassed to say such a thing out loud.I guess it’s true what they say; like father, like son.
And if I saw you sleeping right next to me,I feel like I just might be okay as the person I am now,A person who bullshits about all that he’ll never have.
If I was the god of this world instead.I would rid people of their negative emotions.If only the good ones remained, we would laugh forever.And I don’t think that’s an exaggeration at all.
If someday I could be born into this world anew,I think I’d like another chance at the life I have now,And live so I don’t repeat my mistakes and regrets.But without them, would what was left even be me?