Masochistic Alie
In any case, she has to get away. She has been hurt enough.Unopened curtain, the broken cup, the decomposed cabbage in a sinkShe forgave even her mother’s cruel treatment and her split nail as long as it was called loveShe hugs her skinny knees, and she only blames herself
She realized for the first time when she was told, “Just disappear from here”“I have nowhere to go, please leave me here”, she cried out“I decided on this room with your father because we can see the sea from the window”Her mother used to say that, but tonight she still doesn't come back
She wished she could become one with the seaShe thought that and smiled a little
Masochistic Alie, she sang to the mercy of the wavesThe love of a battered person, she wished to the mercy of the wavesShe still regrets the day she deceived because she wanted to be embraced
Only I know this, I already stopped being selfishSometimes she laughs gently, that is Mother’s true imageFather was already gone as long as I can remember, I can’t ask why anymoreI am looking the sea again tonight, barefoot girl is just in the memory
I wonder if I can become one with the sea.Why I wondered that?
Masochistic Alie, she sang to the mercy of the wavesThe love of battered person, she wished to the mercy of the wavesShe still regrets the day she deceived because she wanted to be embraced
I can’t help feeling hurt and ran through the way to the seaThe barefoot girl on the moonlight beachPlease forgive me that I doubted if I was lovedI don’t need any more. This is the last my selfishness
Masochistic Alie, she floated on the mercy of the wavesThe love of battered person, she sunk in the mercy of the wavesThe person loved Father who loved the seaI wonder if I become one with the sea, will she embrace me?I still love her