Like Toy Soldiers
Step by step, heart to heart, left right leftWe all fall down...
[Chorus]Step by step, heart to heart, left right leftWe all fall down like toy soldiersBit by bit, torn apart, we never winBut the battle wages on for toy soldiers
[Verse 1]I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composureEven though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shouldersI ain't never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know itEven if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matterI'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have toI'm supposed to set an exampleI need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'emIf some shit ever does pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'emThat Ja shit I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop itThere's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed itI heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost itIt was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shitAnd even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost itI spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhaustedAnd I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused itThis ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in itThat was never my object for someone to get killedWhy would I wanna destroy something I help buildIt wasn't my intentions, my intentions was goodI went through my whole career without ever mentionin' SugeAnd that was just out of respect for not runnin' my mouthAnd talkin' about something that I knew nothing aboutPlus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beefSo I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teethWhile he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my lifeLike fuck it i understand this is businessAnd this shit just isn't none of my businessBut still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cause
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[Verse 2]There used to be a time when you could just say a rhymeAnd wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dyin'But now it's elevated cause once you put someone's kids in itThe shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't just rappin'We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happenin'Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with himAnd asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after himUntil Ja started yappin' in magazines how we stabbed himFuck it 50 smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have itMeanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directionsSome receptionist at The Source who answers phones at his deskHas an erection for me and thinks that I'll be his resurrectionTries to blow the dust off his mic and make a new recordBut now he's fucked the game up cause one of the ways I came upWas through that publication the same one that made me famousNow the owner of it has got a grudge against me for nothin'Well fuck it, that motherfucker can get it too, fuck him thenBut I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to thinkThat we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc.And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mindWe still have soldiers that's on the front lineThat's willing to die for us as soon as we give the ordersNever to extort us, strictly to show they support usWe'll maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorusTo show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it isTo have Runyan Avenue, soldiers up in our cornersTheir loyalty to us is worth more than any award isBut I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murderedIt ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to word itThen to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the verdictI'll walk away from it all before I let it go any furtherBut don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coppin'I'm just willin' to be the bigger manIf ya'll can quit poppin' off at the jaws, well then I canCause frankly I'm sick of talkin'I'm not gonna let someone else's coffin rest on my conscience cause
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