Hope Of Morning
My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fastBlurs all the colors 'til I can't see pastThe last mistake, the choice I madeStaring in the mirror with myself to blameSometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts insideNowhere to hide inside my mindI'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repairI second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every stepWhat if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?I try to capture every moment as it comes to meBottle up the memories and let them keep me company
When the hope of morning starts to fade in meI don't dare let darkness have its way with meAnd the hope of morning makes me worth the fightI will not be giving in tonight
When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verseOr worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myselfLike never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental healthOr lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to trackI really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniacNow days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselvesTrade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pillsBut my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or doseSelf-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully closeBut I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to knowSelf-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
When the hope of morning starts to fade in meI don't dare let darkness have its way with meAnd the hope of morning makes me worth the fightI will not be giving in tonight
Try as I might to keep it togetherWhy is recovery taking foreverFool the whole world, just until I get betterI'm terrified I'll be faking foreverOn and on I wonder what went wrong inside my headI don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I didAll the pain I can't explain away won't fadeAll the the secrets silenced by the shameDon't make me say it [x7]
When the hope of morning starts to fade in meI don't dare let darkness have its way with meAnd the hope of morning makes me worth the fightI will not be giving in tonight