The Art Of Forgiveness
I would build wallsFor miles around meAround anything that hurtAny sensitive categoryKept love at an arm's-lengthIt was natural to meYou did not agree
You said things like "Unhealthy"And I took on the taskOf changing my patternAll you did was askAnd the walls all came crashingAt a welcoming speedI was convinced you'd never hurt me
And I used to cling to the back of your mindBut I must have let goAt the moment in timeWhen she offered careless physical joyBoth bouncing my heart aroundLike a cheap rubber toy
And after countlessHoursOf cryingTrying to forgive youBelieve youGrow a spine and leave youGrieve youI've come to this conclusion
No one prepares you when choosing to stayHow to dare share a bed againKeep demons at bayShe took something preciousThat was just meant for meNot for her eyes to see
And I used to cling to the back of your mindBut you must have let goAt the moment in timeWhen she offered careless physical joyBoth bouncing my heart aroundLike a cheap rubber toy
And after countlessHoursOf cryingTrying to forgive youBelieve youGrow a spine and leave youGrieve you
And after countlessHoursOf cryingTrying to forgive youBelieve youGrow a spine and leave youGrieve youI've come to this conclusion
After all the years you invested in meAll the love, tears, and possibilitiesI realize that if the tables were turned aroundYou wouldn't leave me now