Still Dreaming
Passive in everythingGetting by the easy way, easy waySo I don't get too pessimisticAccepting, giving up, that kind of thingRecently I finally understoodThat the noise of the city is chasing meEvery day spent without thinkingThey came to say they want some colorA good girl again todayHating my acting selfNo, I'm plenty satisfied, and I accept itA failing cyborgOk, so that prioritized makeup isn't hereIt's not here, it's not thereIt's nowhere, it's nowhere
Not black and white, I choose greyNot left or right, the middle's fine
This sucks, this sucksI'm still dreamingReality is, reality isTruly cruelStench, painI want to stay hereThis sucks, this sucksI'm still dreaming
Maybe I'm a product of indecisivenessPlease give me a hint on how to live wellSoftly, gentlyCountless consciousnesses wrapped in a pillEvery day cleanly cut with one slashI'd like a strong willpower, pleaseThe things you can't help thinking aboutI just can't, I just can'tI fall to the depths of consciousnessI'm warned constantlyBy the distractionsBy the melancholy of singing songsMy voice stops and eventually turns to sobsIt's become traumaThe times when the sparkling moments flickerThe nightmares whisper, in my ear, and cause me to remember
Highs and lows of emotionComing and goingPlus and minusAfter all, lifeAfter adding and subtracting, comes to 0Creating life which disappearsWhat even is a so-called "truly significant life"? continues. PainI'll be troubled until I die, maybe it's fate
Please, someone, fill this empty containerSo that it's zero when I dieIt's the same as going homeI want you to realize this
HelpHelpSomeone, somethingSomehow
Follow my soundless voiceBecause I'll sing a song only you can hear
This sucks, this sucksI'm still dreamingReality is, reality isTruly cruelStench, painI want to stay hereThis sucks, this sucksI'm still dreaming
This sucks, this sucksIf I see a dreamIn this still-spent realityI'm seeing a dreamThe day I can see it continueI'll be spending it dreamingI hateThe futureI want to say here