Yours and Mine
I sometimes wishi could just be anonymous,walk down on streetjust like everyone else.Before i was famousi was a girlon the heel with a guitar.I was a girl that just wantedbeautiful view of the beach.And now that i'm famousit's really difficult to dovery simple things.I think it's the hardest thingto give up, but my motheralways taught me to be strongand to never be a victim.Never make excuses.Never expect anyone elseto provide for me,things i know that i canprovide for myself.I have dreamsand i feel likei have a power toactually make those dreamsbecome a reality.When you're famousno one looks at youas a human anymore.You become the property of the public.There's nothing real about it.You can't put your fingeron who i am,i can put my finger on who i am.I am complicated,I grew up with a lot ofconflicts and traums andi've been through a lot,just like everyone else.Mu escape was always music,and i am so lucky that that's my job.But if i complex all of this thingsand had no one to share withit would be worth nothing.You know you need something realand order of any of this stuff to matter.You have to have somethingthat is forever,something invisible.I was bright upseeing my mothertried please,and make everyone comfortableand i'm always feel like it was my jobfix problem.People-pleaser.But i am no longerafraid of conflictand i do not think likeconflict is bad thing.Cause i know thatwhen you grow upwhen you learn a few thingsyou are no longer afraidof letting go.You are no longer afraid of the unknown.You are no longer afraid of going tocertain places in your bodyand your mindand your soul that maymake you uncomfortable.And it all started withif you can look at yourself in the mirror,you say 'I like that person, you know'.If i had gone through,you know, some of thepainful experiences in my life,i would not be me.I feel like my life is borrowin this life is very temporary.I watched my friend's bodydeteriorate and to watchsomeone pass on so gracefullyput everything in perspective.We do not value ourselves enough,especially young peopledon't really appreciatehow brilliant our bodies are.I've always beenvery specific and very choosyabout what i do with my bodyand who i wanna share it with.People think they lose somethingwhen they get married,but it doesnt have to be that way.There is nothing more excitingabout having a witness to your life.I always considered myselfa feminist althoughi was always afraid of that wordbecause people put so much on it.When, honestly, it's very simple.It's a person who believes inequality for man and women.Minium balance each other outand we have to get to a pointwhere we are comfortablewith appreciating each other.I have a lot of empathy for menand the pressures that they gothrough in the culturesthat have been createdespecially for african-american men.I have the same empathy forwomen and the pressureswe go through.The woman has to provideso many things for their children.I consider myselfa humanist.You know, everybody is notgood at everything,you know,it's okay todepend on someone.It's actually what we're supposed to do.We're supposed to depend each other,and when you find the personthat you trust and you loveand you feel is going to respect youand tak all of the shit you haveand turn it aroundand bring out the best in you,it feeds you.It is the most powerful thingthat you can ever feel in your life.Happiness comes from you.No one else can make you happy.You make you happy.And one thing that's for surethe love i have,the music,from my husband,from my child,it's something thatwill last far behind in my life.