A Plague of Lighthouse Keepers
I. Eyewitness
Still waiting for my saviour,storms tear me limb from limb;my fingers feel like seaweed...I'm so far out I'm too far in.I am a lonely man, my solitude is true,my eyes have borne stark witnessand now my nights are numbered, too.
I've seen the smiles on dead hands,the stars shine, but they're not for me.
I prophesy disaster and then I count the cost....I shine but, shining, dying,I know that I am almost lost.On the table lies blank paperand my tower is built on stone;I only have blunt scissors,I only have the bluntest home.I've been the witness and the seal of deathlingers in the molten wax that is my head.
When you see the skeletonsof sailing-ship spars sinking lowyou'll begin to wonder if the points of all the ancient mythsare solemnly directed straight at you...
II. Pictures / Lighthouse(Eddies / rocks / ships / collision / remorse.)
III. Eyewitness
No time now for contrition,the time for that's long past,the walls are thin as tissueand if I talk I'll crack the glass.So I only think on how it might have been,locked in silent monologue, in silent scream.
Anyway, I'm much too tired to speakand, as the waves crash on the bleakstones of the tower, I start to freakand find that I am overcome...
IV. S.H.M.
'Unreal, unreal!' ghost helmsmen screamand fall in through the sky,not breaking through my seagull shrieks,no breaks until I die.The spectres scratch on window-slits,the hollowed faces, mindless grinsare only intent on destroying what they've lost.
I crawl the wall till steepness ends in the vertical fall;my pail has sailed into the sea - no joking hopes at dawn.White bone shine in the iron-jaw mask,lost mastheads pierce the freezing darkand parallel my isolated tower....no paraffin for the flame,no harbour left to gain.
V. The Presence of the Night / Kosmos Tours
'Alone, alone, ' the ghosts all call,pinpoint me in the light.The only life I feel at allis the presence of the night.
Would you cry if I died?Would you cry if I died?
Would you catch the final words of mine?Would you catch my words?I know that there's no time,I know that there's no rhyme,false signs find me.I don't want to hate, I just want to grow;why can't I let me live and be free?...but I die very slowly alone.
I know no more ways, I am so afraid,myself won't let me just be myselfand so I am completely alone.
The maelstrom of my memoryis a vampire and it feeds on me;now, staggering madly, over the brink I fall.
VI. (Custard's) Last Stand
Lighthouses might house the key,but can I reach the door?I want to walk on the sea,so that I may better find a shore...but how can I ever keep my feet dry?I scan the horizon,I must keep my eyes on all parts of me.
Looking back on the yearsit seems that I have lost my way:Like a dog in the night I have run to a manger,now I am the stranger I stay in.
All of the grief I have seenleaves me chasing solitary peace;but I hold experience in my head....I'm too close to the lightI don't think I see right, for I blind me.
VII. The Clot Thickens
Where is the God that guides my hand?How can the hands of others reach me?When will I find what I grope for?Who is going to teach me?I am me / me are we / we can't seeany way out of here.Crashing sea, a atrophied history:Chance has lost my Guinevere....
I don't want to be one wave in the water,But sea will drag me deep:one more haggard drowned man.
I can see the Lemmings coming,but I know I'm just a man;Do I join or do I founder?Which can is the best I may?
VII. Land's End (Sineline)/We Go Now
Oceans drifting sideways, I am pulled into the spell,I feel you around me...I know you well.Stars slice horizons where the lines stand much too stark;I feel I am drowning - hands stretch in the dark.
Camps of panoply and majesty, what is Freedom of Choice?Where do I stand in the pageantry...whose is my voice?It doesn't feel so very bad now, I think the end is the start,begin to feel very glad now:
All things are a partAll things are apartAll things are a part