Dirty Laundry
[Chorus]Let’s do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundryLet’s do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundryWhen you’re soaked in tears for years, it never airs outWhen you make pain look this good it never wears outThis dirty laundry, this dirty laundry
[Verse 1]While my sister was on stage, killing it like a motherf-ckerI was enraged, feeling it like a motherf-ckerBird in a cage, you would never know what I was dealing withWent out separate ways, but I was happy she was killing itBittersweet, she was up, I was downNo lie, I feel good for her, but what do I do now?Forget the recordsOff the record, I was going through some bullshitPost-survivor, she on fire, who wanna hear my bullshit?Meanwhile, this nigga putting his hands on meI swear y’all don’t know the half of this industry
[Chorus]
[Verse 2]And it’s almost been a decadeI’m behind them black shadesRoll up like it’s all good, right up out that escaladeFix my make-up, “get it together, Kelly, get it together”Then we make up, “well get it together, nigga, get it together”Kinda lucky, I was in her shadowPhone call from my sister, “what’s the matter?”She said, “Oh no, baby - you gotta leave!”I’m on the kitchen floor - he took the keysI was mad at everybody, I mean everybodyYeah, her, her, her her everybodyFive years later, I got my shit down patThink I had it good, and they don’t know how badFooled everybody, except myselfSoaking in this hurt, bathing in the dirt
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]So here I am in the spin cycleWe’re comin and we’re goinNobody can know thisAnd I was trapped in his house, lyin’ to my mamaThought it could get no worse as we maximize the dramaStarted to call them people on himI was batteredHe hittin the window like it was me, until it shatteredHe pulled me out, he said, “Don’t nobody love you but meNot your mama, not your daddy and especially not Bey”He turned me against my sisterI missed ya
[Chorus]
Love is pain, and pain is love…He had me fucked up…