Darkness
I'm scared of swimming in the seaDark shapes moving under meEvery fear I swallow makes me smallInconsequential things occurAlarms are triggeredMemories stir
It's not the way it has to be
I'm afraid of what I do not knowI hate being underminedI'm afraid I can be devil manAnd I'm scared to be divineDon't mess with me my fuse is shortBeneath this skin these fragments caught
When I allow it to beThere's no control over meI have my fearsBut they do not have me
Walking through the undergrowth,To the house in the woodsThe deeper I go, the darker it getsI peer through the windowKnock at the doorAnd the monster I wasSo afraid ofLies curled up on the floorIs curled up on the floor just like a baby boy
I cry until I laugh
I'm afraid of being motheredWith my balls shut in the penI'm afraid of loving womenAnd I'm scared of loving menFlashbacks coming in every nightDon't tell me everything's alright
When I allow it to beIt has no control over meI own my fearSo it doesn't own me
Walking through the undergrowth,To the house in the woodsThe deeper I go, the darker it getsI peer through the windowKnock at the doorAnd the monster I wasSo afraid ofLies curled up on the floorIs curled up on the floor just like a baby boy
I cry until I laugh