Anna Begins
My friend assures me, “It’s all or nothing.”I am not worried I am not overly concernedMy friend implores me, “For one time only,make an exception.” I am not worriedWrap her up in a package of liesSend her off to a coconut islandI am not worried I am not overly concernedwith the status of my emotions“Oh,” she says, “you’re changing.”But we’re always changing
It does not bother me to say this isn’t loveBecause if you don’t want to talk about it then it isn’t loveAnd I guess I’m going to have to live with thatBut I’m sure there’s something in a shade of grey,Something in between,And I can always change my nameIf that’s what you mean
My friend assures me, “It’s all or nothing.”But I am not really worriedI am not overly concernedYou try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourselfTo make yourself forgetI am not worried“If it’s love,” she said, “then we’re going to have to think about the consequences.”She can’t stop shakingI can’t stop touching her and…
This time when kindness falls like rainIt washes her away and Anna begins to change her mind“These seconds when I’m shaking leave me shuddering for days,” she saysAnd I’m not ready for this sort of thing
But I’m not going to breakAnd I’m not going to worry about it anymoreI’m not going to bend, and I’m not going to break andI’m not going to worry about it anymoreIt seems like I should say, “As long as this is love…”But it’s not all that easy so maybe I shouldSnap her up in a butterfly netPin her down on a photograph albumI am not worried
I’ve done this sort of thing beforeBut then I start to think about the consequencesBecause I don’t get no sleep in a quiet room and…
The time when kindness falls like rainIt washes me away and Anna begin s to change my mindAnd every time she sneezes I believe it’s love andOh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing
She’s talking in her sleepIt’s keeping me awake and Anna begins to toss and turnAnd every word is nonsense but I understand andOh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing
Her kindness bangs a gongIt’s moving me along and Anna begins to fade awayIt’s chasing me away She disappears andOh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing