I'll Find A Way
I heard they found a way to no set placeThat they’re way ahead and winning but there’s no real raceAnd they’re feeding on the thrill of a chaseWhen they’ll never find a way to keep the paceI heard they found a way to build our dreamsCan they engineer a world in which we hear no screamsAnd I heard that they can make vaccinesBut our sick routine isn’t keen to relieveI heard they found a way to see through wallsDo they have the sight to see my scarsAnd can they find a way to view who we areOr does such vision just exist in the farAnd can incisions ever fix all the vying that persistsCan a needle cure the evil through the armI’m told they have the means to travel to the starsBut can’t journey to the start of the savage in our heartsSo if I’m ravaged and afraidDamaged and apart, tired of charadesHow can I clear the smoke that billowsWade through to cope and chisel out a life that’s worthy and of praise
[Chorus:]My whole life’s passing me byAs I sit and wonder whyI’ll find a way...
They say tomorrow brings a brighter dayBut do they know about the sorrow that’s beyond the frayDo they see all of the madness that man obeysAnd can they understand that sadness won’t go awayBut it’s okay 'cuz the truth is I’m feeling wholeFeeling like the emptiness inside has found a homeAnd I’m hopeful that my destiny is one of heightsOne in which the apathy in me no longer strikesAnd I wonder how this ending has come to passWhen just yesterday was carefree and full of laughsBut if there’s certainty in anything it’s what we haveIs but impermanent 'cuz no thing will always lastYet still I can’t help but question fateCan’t shake the feeling that I hold the key to great escapeAnd I feel in me a yearning that still enduresA spirit wandering and eager now to find a cureBelieve me this is pure essencePure intentionIt goes beyond mere conversation and confessionIt’s much too vague to formulate into expressionBut perhaps there’s something greater that we’ve all been set inAnd this is not to say I know the wayThis is not to say attachment’s been put awayThis is not to say my love for you’s been held at bayAnd I don’t possess or know a simple route to changeBut it is to say I hold you closeAnd it is to say the love in me is more than mostAnd it is to say your absence has left it’s markBut I tell myself this plays within a bigger partNow you are not the only way to make me wholeKnow that I won’t ever turn my heart to stoneYou are not the only way to make me wholeAnd I won’t ever turn my heart to stone
And I’ll find a way...
I’m not without a spirit that can hold up to the tortureNot without a will to stop the cycle that maraudersNot without a mind to free the hate within my borderAnd to cleanse the vessel into which my consciousness is orderedI’m not afraid of monsters that intimidate and taunt yaNot afraid to challenge all the violence and slaughterThe leviathans that haunt are hardly deadly out of waterI’ll find a way to offer the elixir of disorderSo many trails have crossed the rivers forged from all our tearsSo many paths have left us all alone during these yearsSo many that we’ve lost but I can feel their presence nearI can see a road ahead that leads beyond the known frontierSo lift yourself up slowly and rest your eyes upon meAnd let the sad and lonely float away and disappearAnd leave the guilt and shame and all the anger and the fearLets trade it for the will to find a way to persevere
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How long can I surrender forHow deep can my descending boreHow long can I neglect me forHow long is this confinement forHow long can I arrest me forHow long can I detain me forHow long before I stray off courseHow long before all hope is lost
How long can one survive among the horrorLive among the demons that all seethe in darkened cornersCling to all the grief released in tidal waves upon yaProclaim it isn’t fair, content to bear forever mournerThis moment is in orderNow let the waters passLet the smoldered ash remain beside the olden pastLeave it on behalf of those who crave to hear you laughAnd walk among the living as you find a way to last
How long can I survive this forHow long can I abate this forHow long can I remain this strongWell how long can I just sing this song
I’ll find a way...