The Last
Behind every idol rapper who succedsThere's a weak self standing, it's a little dangerousI fall sometimes again into depression and compulsionhell no, anyway I dont even know if that's te real me
damn huh reality's separationThe conflict I've mentioned, it hurts your headIt was around 18 when my social phobia beganYeah, that's right around that time my mental state became polluted
Sometimes I'm afraid of myself, thanks to my self-hatredAnd the depression that came to play againMin Yoongi is already dead (I killed him)It's been a long time since my everyday life became killing my passions and comparing myself with ohters
My parents came up the first time I went to the psychiatristThey gıt counseling with me, they said they hardly knew meI don't even know my own self, so who can know me?Friends? no,you? whoever it is, they don't know me
The doctor asked meI said unhesitatingly that I'd been like that before
A world said like habit, oh, I don't give a sht, i don't give a fckThose words are all words I use to hide my weak selfThat time I want to erase, that's right, the memories i want to erase of that day I had that concertI was afraid pf people, so I hid in the bathroom and stared at myself
At that time I , at that time II thought I could compensate for successBut here's the thing, but here's the thingAs time passes by, it feels like I'm becoming a monster
My monster named success that I traded my youth for, he wants a bigger wealthThe greed that was my weapon, it devours me and sometimes it collars meThese things turn on my mouth, if I block it, he tells me to eat from the tree of knowledgeI don't want it , they want me to leave this hill
sht sht, I get it, please stopThe cause of all these issues is me, I'll quit in returnIf my misfortune is your happiness than I'll be unhappyIf the target of your loathing is me then I'll go up on the guillotine
The things I only imagined are becoming reality, my childhood dream is in front of my eyesThe taste of performing in front of only two people, now Tokyo Dome is in front of my noseLiving this one time life more brightly than anyone, try saying I'm living roughlyMy fan my hommie my fam, don't worry, I'm really okay now, damn
The things that corrupted my essence are numerousMy address is idol, I won' be corruptedThe agony that dug at my mental stateIt's the end of wandering, there was no right answer
My self-esteem that said I'd betrayed myself is now my own prideMy fans honorably bow their heads, someone try as much as me, uh
From Seiko to Rolex, from AX Hall to the Gymnastics StadiumThe heads of many people that nod just at the movement of my handIt's not that I couldn't do Show Me the Money, it's that I said I wouldn't, shtIt's not that you guys who betrayed us didn't do it, it's that you couldn't, shtThis world sprinkled with my creations, I've tasted sweetness and bitterness and even shtFrom that time when I tried to sleep on the floor of a bathroom, now it's a memory to me, it's become a memoryThe shoulder that was crushed because of an accident during my delivery jobThe debut that I clutched onto, you guys just pretend like you've suffered
From Seiko to Rolex, from AX Hall to the Gymnastics StadiumThe heads of many people that nod just at the movement of my handIt's not that I couldn't do Show Me the Money, it's that I said I wouldn't, shtIt's not that you guys who betrayed us didn't do it, it's that you couldn't, sht