The Return
And they say they know me'the fuck outta hereonly god knows what I been through manSo if you wanna talkget your facts straight firstand if you really wanna knowlet me ask you something
Have you ever walked in the shoes of a giant?Or had to fill the position of a bossbefore you were even a client?It's no wonder growing up under the roof of a tyrantthat I would be the poster boy for defianceNow I'm the voice of the silenceFuck being quietIve seen 20 years worth of violenceI'm tiredIt's a burden for me to open my eyelidsNot an undercover copBut it's safe to say that I'm wiredI cant even get a grip of my life with pliersI'm fucked up in the headClose my eyes cause I see demons 'round my bedSo depressed open 'em up hoping I'm deadThought the fame would make it betterbut it only fucked me overNever used to touch a bottleNow I'm hardly ever soberPeople wanna be my friend?But where the fuck were y'all when I was 10eleven and twelve getting bulliedand beat up in the gymI couldn't ever get a girlNow all a sudden I'm the manstudents try to get back cool with me againfuck em allBecause guess where they gon' bewhen my records stop playinggone with the windoff of the records I'm sayingthat Kells fell offI knew it would happenStop hatingcause a month ago you was all over my jocksaying that I'm that mother fuckerbut now I'm whack mother fucker?OPINIONS CHANGE but you cannot change facts mother fuckerIf you want bullet point than call me a gat a mother fuckerI lay my whole life out like a mat mother fuckerand I've experienced some things that would stop you from eatingMy schizophrenic cousin tried to end my life while I'm sleepingMy bummy uncle wanna call now that he sees me succeedingMy momma left me for a teacherI lost my dad to the preachingHalf my friends are buried 6 feetall the rest in the precinctLiterally watched my grandmother die from diabetesI guess my prayers were answeredWhen my aunt got cancer and beat itNow I wanna get her outta jobGive her the garden of EdenI did a lot of bad shitGod got evenBut for the price I had to payI wish I'd stop breathingMy girl sat in the bath tub8 hours bleedinghearing the doctor tell us our child's heart stopped beatingFuck a millionI wouldn't take a doller for a lifebut i will do whats in my heartand trade this dollar for a micI wrote this song in hopesthat it could help someone get through the nightbut no intentions of getting paidI'm just doing what is rightI do it for the fansNo the real fansWho stuck wit me through the stormCause they understandThat there's a genuine painbehind the words I'm sayingAnd they embrace meSo I thank y'all for stayingAin't it crazy?That passion is my Achilles heeleither that or keeping it way to realBut they don't know how it feelsTo feed off the energy of a crowdStep on stage and they get loudAnd dad, Imma make you proudI know we don't speak right nowBut I think turning new leaves what we need right nowI love youAnd you may not see right nowBut I'm begging for forgivenessI'm on my knees right nowYou saw your son as a dropoutStuck around when I ranSaw your son as a felonNow see your son as a manSee your son be a fatherTo a beautiful childOr just see your son dadSee me smileWho would've thought what started at the bottomWould someday growFrom 3 people in the crowdUnpaid shows6 people in the room1 meal a dayAnother opening act where no one knows my namesaw the demos that I passed outlaying on the groundSaw the rappers I befriended copying my styleSaw opportunities passedWhile these fakes got richNow I can't stop speedingLike my brakes ain't shitFor 6 months I went through hell and backRight at the height of my successall of a sudden doctors said I couldn't rapI had a polyp on my vocal chordsleft with a choicestop now or possibly lose my voicebut I woke up every morningand recorded till my throat swelled shutcoughed blood up after every showcause it hurt that muchI went weeks without even saying a word to myselfNo health insurance so the bills piled up on the shelfrap for my daughter and my famand every single fanI pushed through it now I'm back for y'all againas for my competitionthis the beginning of the endbut right now this is my returnAmenKells
And they say they know me'the fuck outta here