Déjà vu
As I fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict traitsBlood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of night quil then I salivateStart off with the night quil like I think I'll just have a tasteCouple sips of that then I gradually graduateToo a harder perscription drug called Valium like ya that's great I go to take just one and I end up like having eightNow I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steakAnd you'd think with all I have at stakeLook at my daughters face... Mommy somethings is wrong with dad I thinkHe's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear meAnd all he does is eatin' dorritos and cheetosAnd he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before,So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door,Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do,But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don'tAnd why I just don't know...
Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer That's the devil in my ear I been sober a fucking yearAnd that fucker still talks to me he is all I can fucking hearMarshall come on we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneersAnd maybe if I just drink half I'll be halfed buzzed for half of the timeWho's that mastermind behind that little line With that kind of rational man I got half a mindToo have another half of glass of wine sound acinine Ya I knowBut I never had no problem with alcoholOuch look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm about to fall I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncing ballShit must have knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow what the fuck happend last night where am IMan fuck am I hungover and god damn I got a head acheShit half a vicodin why can't I? "All systems ready for take off please stand by"
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before,So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door,Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don'tAnd why I just don't know...
So I take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahA couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting highNow I need it just not to feel sick ya I'm getting byWouldn't even be taking this shit if deshaun didn't dieOh ya there's an excuse you lose proof so you useThere's new rules it's cool if it's helping you to get throughIt's twelve noon ain't no harm in self inducing a snoozeWhat else is new fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoesNow here I am 3 months later full blown relapseJust get high until the kids get home from two homes relaxAnd since I'm convinced that I'm in-somniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 napsJust to be able to function throughout the day let's seeThat's an ambian each nap how many Valium 3And that will average out to about one good hours sleepOK so now you see the reason how come heHas taken 4 years just too put out an album beatSee me and you we almost had the same outcome heathCause that Christmas you know the nomonia thingIt was Bologna was it the methadone ya thinkOr the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornosYour VCR tape cases with you ambian cr great places to hide ain't itSo you can lie to Halie I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night ElainaGo in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in ambulanceThey said they found me on the bathroom floor
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before,So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me,Soon as I go home and close the door,Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do,But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don'tAnd why I just don't know...