Unbecoming
I lost myself into the nightAnd I flew higherThan I had everBut I still felt smallI clipped my wings and fell from flightTo open waterAnd floated fartherAway from myself
And I swam in the wakes of impostersJust to feel what it's like to pretendThere's no dreams in the lakes only monstersAnd the monsters are my only friends
They're all that I wasAnd never could be
Eyes in the dead still waterTried but it pushed back harderCauterized and atrophiedThis is my unbecomingKnives in the backs of martyrsLives in the burning fodderCauterized and atrophiedThis is my unbecoming
You found me drifted out to seaIt's automaticIt's telepathicYou always knew meAnd you laugh as I search for a harborAs you point where the halo had beenBut the light in your eyes has been squanderedThere's no angel in you in the end
And all that I wasI've left behind me
Eyes in the dead still waterTried but it pushed back harderCauterized and atrophiedThis is my unbecomingKnives in the backs of martyrsLives in the burning fodderCauterized and atrophiedThis is my unbecoming
Now I waitThis metamorphosisAll that is left is the changeSelfish fateI think you made me thisUnder the water I wait
Eyes in the dead still waterTried but it pushed back harderCauterized and atrophiedThis is my unbecomingKnives in the backs of martyrsLives in the burning fodderCauterized and atrophiedThis is my unbecoming