Goodnight
I kick flows, rip shows, think it switched thoughShit no, it ain't any different when I get homeI shift po to get dough, lust P's if you ain't ever been brokeFor you to judge me's an insult, it's my life an I'm living it
Agreed we all have choices but mine limited mostly by my decisionsIf I knew then what I knew now I'd a lived live differentI'd be a different me but I didn't so this is meMe in my position, what would you have done
Would you of done what I did? Am I what you would become?My guess, my guess is you would of succumb like I didThe decision was mine but I was too youngAnd I picked the wrong path, I went the wrong wayLeft school then got the grade, banged it out, got my pape'sStacked my P's, copped a cake, I'm holding weight nowMade a brick of a ounce and ain't been in the jailhouseI intend on staying free, free for me don't mean free from stress
Lay in bed but I ain't asleepFrom I need rest I just blaze the tree'sDrift off hearing my nan say to me
Goodnight, God blessI'll see you in the morningGoodnight, God blessI'll see you in the morning
I'm a dreamer but can only dream asLong as I'm asleep I've been having trouble sleepingSee nanny, Edie ain't here to say goodbye no moreI had to say goodbye to her, inside is where resides the hurt
Now all I feel is pain, after that nothingnessAfter that nothing since after that there's nothing leftSome of her last words were I can't fight foreverLike she wanted to give up and of life she was fed up
She had to go but I wanted her to stay'Cause ever since she left, things haven't been the sameI need a new shelter from the rainMy face looking weathered, a facety looking bredder, I'm fed up
I know not what to doSee, I'd love to say that I don't give a fuck but I doThe gift and curse that I'm blessed withThe pressures on road ain't nothing to the emotions that I wrestle with
Stress got me in a figure four, raw is what I'm thinkingI wonder what I'm living for, is it only to hurt first my great nan?Now I gotta put my dad in the dirtBack in the earth, I wished we could have patched it up first
I was so angry though, I just couldn't handle the hurtNow you're in the back of a hurseIt hurts more than it ever didSometimes I wish that I had never lived
Feels as if it would have been better if I never did, liveI don't know how I'm ever gonna get through this shitI swear down blood, I'm runnin' on emptyMy life ain't nothing to be envied, so goodnight