Today I Cried
I only went and fucking did itUsed to be a dream but now I fucking live itWeren't even writing raps I was down and out about to fucking quit itLucky for me that I fucking didn'tSee lily came along when I was at my lowestSelling wraps of coke not the raps I flow withI made it and I owe to a chat I had with her,Who knows where I'd be if that chat hadn't occurredBack with the bag, with the bag full of herbs initInstead I got her on a track and I murdered itMy name started causing murmurs in the industryBut none of these labels would work with it until virgin didPut my first single out and we earned a hitThat's why we never [?]I know it must burn a bitJust did a show and everybody knew the words to itThe day I risked everything for I couldn't have given anything more all these years away everythingBut this is something that nothing could have readied me forWhat you think all my problems are remedied cos' I get an applause, there not
[2x:]Today I criedAnd I don't know whyBut today I criedAnd I don't know why
My single went in at 3My album went in at 2For a debut not to shabby if I have to I make doFinally some form of reward for the things I came throughBut it's different to the perfect picture people paint youOn the way up you might be a person people take toThen you break through and the same people who rated you hate tooAll of a sudden anything you may do may make newsAnd I'm sick to death of explaining what is ain't trueSpend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same tooThough I know I've got to make the most of it there will be no take 2And I'm grateful I would hate to see 'em cos' I'm leaving my dream nowBut I don't sleep nowAnd all these hours awake are making me senileSnap [?] to my finalEven people I've been round my whole life are looking at me like I'm a new me nowThey say I've changed but I just don't see howI've always lived my life taking corners that I can't see roundNever knowing what it is I'm trying to seek outBut I'm even beginning to question me now
[2x:]Today I criedAnd I don't know whyBut today I criedAnd I don't know why
(Don't know why I cried)
I know it must seem mad to youIt's mad to meAll I've done is what I've had to doBeen who I've had to beBut the path I've walked has been so gravelyIt's been a strain to remain human amongst all this inhumanityThankfully I had nan who was a mum and a dad to meYou can choose your friends but you can't choose your familyTemporary happiness for me has been a fallacy[?]Sick of hearing how happy I should beI just don't know how to beI can no longer pretendNo more making out to beMaybe all I needs a slap,Someone to shake it out of meHelp me to spell my irrational thoughts think more rationallySick of being in the state of vanityIt's agonyAm I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanityCan it be I'm really just obsessed with myself, obsessive compulsive depressed, my pressures reflecting my healthTaking care of my career but I'm neglecting myselfRejected therapy no I just won't except any helpI pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today I liedI was asked how I was and I said I was fine, I'm not
[3x:]Today I criedAnd I don't know whyBut today I criedAnd I don't know why